complainey

i feel numb most of the time.
i don't know how to deal with my current situations.
i hope i'm dealing with them in the best way i can, but i won't know for sure till it all comes crashing down in a huge crushing, mind numbing, painful wreck.

all i know..is i would give anything to not be me right now. i am invovled in so much bullshit.

i never saw it coming. the coast is never clear.

my email only lets me recieve mail and not send mail. so this is to jael.
i totally agree with your letter and it has since become very evident that this guy is nuts. he said he would "get rid of anyone who gets in the way of us being together" and shit like that. he's fucking nuts and he needs help. i am sooooo...
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i have assumed all the responsibilities of "girlfriend" for this guy...only without that title. it's going so well but feels so wrong.

i just don't know what to do about it anymore.

i just had this funny dream that i was 16 again and i invited my friend jason over and it was really odd. cos it was like i was making the moves on him.

weird.

i think he's the only guy i've ever unconditionally loved and just been buttcrazy in love with. of course, i've never told him this. i think it's implied by the...
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if anyone reading this has a good image of a dancing pickle send it to me ASAP. i need one for a t-shirt idea i have. lainey@swank.nu is my email address.
seriously, if you happen to have an image of a dancing pickle i will not judge you on this fact..don't be shy. if he/she could be wearing a top hat and maybe have a...
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you can tell the bitch, WHOEVA SHE IS, i'ma beat her ass!-friday

that quote rules. friday is such a great movie.

i'm really nervous and trying to cope with it by watching funny movies.

god forbid i actually do something today. what a crime that'd be.

maybe i should go talk to him..perhaps fix this?
i'm scared.

i totally missed my haircut / eyebrow waxing appointment today.
fuckin' a!

see people..this is why you shouldn't spend the nite with your friend.
it just doesn't add up to "good".

1-2= -1

a couple of thoughts about world events:

1- i'm glad the US is out of the world cup running. the last thing we need is militant german soccer fans sending suicide bombers over here.

2- NPR's morning news needs new theme music. hearing headlines about suicide bombers and terrorist threats delivered over easy-listening guitar jazz is too confusing for me to wrap my mind around...
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I learn my name
I write with a number two pencil
I work up to my potential
I earn my meat
I come when called
I jump when you circle the cherry
I sing like a good canary
I come when called
I come, that's all

Send it up on fire
Death before dawn
Send it up on fire
Death before dawn

I clean the...
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little update: my apartment isn't being painted until july 26th. i'm very happy about this. now i can sleep all i want with no disturbances. also, i'm moving in with kristi on august first. this is also good. i'm about to go get a mesquite chicken sub from quizno's. this is stupendous.

also, i seriously want to make out with jessica alba.

oh yes. we are all in this together. let's get a little group hug going or some shit. i don't know what we need...but apathy sounds right.