(for someone specific...who's left sleazy classified ads on my journal) dude dont you get it?? i dont answer or return your posts for a reason...you get none of my ass....alrigght!?!

i am feeling death and it's becoming a closer friend these days. my pain is beyond me sometimes throughout the day..

i am hurt~so basically he says...well im fucked off bout work and i need a break from the band...im thinking about taking 6 months to a year off and tour around the world..
i said well..why dont you come and visit me and see pdx for a bit...i miss you baby..
but as i suspected...he says, no im not coming over to the states. i'd rather see japan and be by myself while i do...
there's more but ill stop because it gets worse..

apparently im not good enough and i mean nothing and our thing which involves a ring...means a big FUCKIN NOTHING!!

FUCK HIM
I'm not going to be treated like this no more...

I mean do I really deserve this..
that is all...