committed

I hate morphine. I hate people and them thinking I'm not worthy of leading my own life...That I'm just some lost soul who's going to hell. Fuck all of you who think you know what's best for me...Fuck you who force religion on others...Fuck you who cast the first stone....Fuck you who say faith is all I need....Nietzsche said it right ..."Faith: Not wanting to know what is true." I've excepted the Truth: I have a disease...that causes pain, no doctor can help me, no friend can understand, no higher power can heal me, and there's nobody "who deserves" what life dishes out. I dont deserve this! I dont deserve to be tortured by pain and debilitation. I deserve to be happy and to be understood. Everyone goes through battles...but why do some have neverending battles? ..."it's those who are born strong and wise, that go through life's hardest challenges..." (some famous professor at Stanford..told me that)...Days like today make that very hard to believe...I want to wake up from my nightmare!!