committed

So pale,
The girl lies upon the black
As if the pupil of some great giant
The pavement stares up at the sky
Only the little child is in the way

So white,
The dress she wears
That old swollen hands had made
Old hands that had sewn with love
The threads "just kept the love close"
Old hands
That sew no more

So brown,
Her hair whips about closed eyes
Reveling in the wind
Always combed, always brushed
So often repressed
A rare reprieve enjoyed

So fast,
Brakes apply
Unemotional wails fill air
Doors open
Hope and futility
Share forms

So red,
The blood has already dried
But paramedics try
The blood is everywhere
But still they try
The heart has stopped
But they still try
To keep the reaper away

So distant,
The black watches
As the girl laughs
As she flies between the clouds
As she joins the stars
No blood on her favourite dress
No pain anymore
Hair blown back

So dark,
The rain comes down
The black smiles to itself
As it weeps
As the tears wash away the red.

I'm so bummed...my SSI check didnt come this month (some lame mix up...I will be paid back on the first) but because it didnt come through...my phone is on a temporary shut off...I can recieve calls and text but cant call out or text out...I am so thankful for amazing people...I am staying with Alyk in Quincy and it has been so nice...she's my new surrogate mum...
I got two new tattoos...3 black rings on my ring finger and a lil skully with a polka dotted bow...
I have a new huge massive crush on this girl...her name is Kaitlyn...yep Kaitlyn and I miss my Autry soooo bad...I seriously feel lost without her presence...I wish Autry and Kaitlyn were here for my surgery...I'd have them get in my hospital bed with me and we'd watch cartoons or "Tank Girl" or "Garbage Pail Kids" *cries*
Anyways...all you Massholes should come visit me in da hospital!!!!