comicking

Stay outta trouble...

On second thought, the hell with that. Get into some trouble!

have fun man....maybe we can make your comment sheet really go up thatfast while your gone....heh

have a good time!
take care of that pussy....
only three months to go??
shit i better get hurrying...

You are are a cruel, cruel man. My revenge will be swift and... and... really, really... musical... or something...

I agree, you should be able to close your own topic, when it becomes derailed and the plot has been lost, but don't expect anyone to side with you on your own personal liberties.

dude, you are a total chick...
thanks for the welcome back and now that its been awhile since calling you a chick you should know that ive cooked shit too so....sorry

yeah i knew what you were referencing. i was just concerned because you seemed to be mixing me up with stinky's feloow ladle enthusiast, Benni, and while that is flattering, it is also a little strange .

Oh, no no, it's not my sewing machine. it doesn't belong to me. it belongs to Satan. sometimes it talks to me. In my dreams. It tells me to lubricate it's gears with the blood of the innocent, but so far powdered graphite has been working pretty well, and the blood of the unborn children is a pain in the ass to buy. You get the wierdest looks.

No, no, I wouldn't go so far as to say sissy, but he can crochet like no other, and let me tell you, the Lord of Ultimate Despair does some mean flower arranging.

Your buddy knows the Gaiman? Wow, that's like the ultimate pickup line at comicon.

You can always see Gaiman coming. He's the guy surrounded by the swarm of goth chicks.

I'll try to clarify my muddy mind. I need to make something to protect my hand from the other guys weapon while I'm fighting. I want to make a segmented gauntlet, basically a thick, rigid leather glove consructed like the tail armor on a lobster. However, on alternative I'm considering is just making a glove of hard leather with a hole in it for my hand, and the sword.

I always know when people are thinking about me. Sadly, people are hardly ever thinking about me. Sure they will say they were but I know they weren't. Bastards.

It did go very well. Everything is going very well. So well it makes me nervous. I keep expecting something to change..

Yeah i did quit for a long time. I was under some stress. Anyway I have managed to cut way back again and think I should be able to quit soon.

Long time no update. (heh look who is talking) nothing new going on?

Everyone always assumes that since I was wild and wicked in my youth previous to marrying Angie that it was she and her influnce upon me and my life that changed me and stopped my drug use.

Actually the case was that I had decided that I had had enough of the lifestyle when my heatlh started being affected by my drinking and drugging and when I saw people around me dropping like flies to the same things I was doing. I got sick of it all and just walked away from it and them.

If I had still been on drugs and booze when she and I met then she most likely would have hated me and we never would have been.

I guess when you think about it that way it sort of makes a good arguement for fate or destiny...or maybe just pure, blind, dumb luck.

-Josh

Yeah it was long. (so is this. Sorry)

Well, yeah, she is to some extent playing games with me. I think I know the purpose though and I can live with that.
I think I have laid it on the line with her and that is part of the problem. Not the fact that I have, but that we still want different things, but I also have hope that we can reach some kind of compromise.

I think a common misconception that people have had regarding my questions is that people haven't realized that, at least in regard to Jen and also regarding Law school girl, I am the one asking people to settle. I am the one who can only give so much. Although the effect may be that my need for Jen to settle will result in me settling for less as well.

A problem of course with asking people to settle and with telling people you can only give so much, is that sometimes they don't believe you. Jen has told me many times that there was no one I was more dishonest with than myself. She may be right. The fact remains, however, that I cant be more than friends. With her or with anyone else. Jen never accpeted that, although, I never really knew until our friendship began to erode. I believe that is why she is being cautious now. I think she wants to avoid developing the same depth of feeling that we once had.

The situation with law school girl is similar. It is clear to me that she thinks I may not be as firm in my resolve to not be more than friends as I think I am. She is wrong, at least as far as it pertains to her. This is something she makes clear more through actions than words. It may lead to me not being able to be friends with her at all. I would like to avoid that because, frankly I enjoy her company and she is willing to make more time for me than most people are lately.

I can be shy. Especially in certain situations. I am not always comfortable in public places or around large groups of people. I think the person who is different online is actually me. The person online is closer to the real me than the person you have met in person. Part of that has to do with location. I am not totally comfortable there. Because of that I tend to be more reserved. In fact I wear a mask there as I do most places. The mask I wear there, however, is one of the most concealing. I do think we have some things in common and that there is a basis for friendship, but like other people we know, I can be hard to get to know. This is likely to be compounded by where we see each other. It is just not a place where I tend to be comfortable around other people. That doesnt mean it cant/wont happen. I think it has already started to, but, it may take time.

Sorry to hear you are broke. I am in a very similar situation. I am not doing much outside work and it is starting to have a serious effect on my standard of living.



[Edited on Jul 03, 2004 7:15AM]

Did you ever stop to think that perhaps the reason for my not having erased my previous journal and simply putting a smily in its place is because of my being dumb as a dirt clod?

Thanks for the anniversary wishes.

Peace.

-Josh