i arrived home (family HQ) at half past 9 last night and found my mum, dad and younger brother watching "romper stomper" so i joined them for an hour or so until i started to nod off and this was irritating my brother because i kept trying to lie down and leave him with my feet on his lap... i love sofa sleep.
so this morning my phone went off at 8am which woke me rather horribly...i answered the second time around and im pretty sure i fell asleep while whoever it was on the phone was still talking to me, oops.
then my brother came in and started talking at me and asking me to dye his 'hawk...god why doesnt anybody want me to sleep!!?!?!
i am so tired.
and i want to paint things.
and talk on the phone to someone who i could just talk to for hours with no awkward silences and never run out of things to say. i miss that.
and also, i think i have a strange obsession with bad weather, i have a sort of fascination with natural disasters in the form of fast winds. hurricanes and the like. i find this rather odd.
i was sitting in the living room in ali's house next to the windows looking out over the lake and the rain was pissing down and the trees were bending over and branches were falling into the lake and i found myself wishing for a bad storm that would give me an adrenalin rush.
i keep having really strange dreams, last night i was on my way somewhere when i saw a family where my grandparents used to live selling puppies and kittens but they all had certain things about them that wouldnt really be that way, like the kittens having an actual hair style? and the dogs being strange colours, and i recall wanting a dog that was half purple and half orange or red...
im getting chubby, i dislike this, ive always wished i had a different body structure, one more fragile and tiny.
i have a friend who wants to look like iggy pop, hes awesome lol.
ive been more into photography at the moment, ive been "into" it for years now but i have small periods of time where i dont take any photos and then suddenly i get an idea and i cant stop taking photos and ive been sortve like that at the moment, and i think my insomnia is coming back, which isnt a good thing as i often dont sleep for a week or two at a time...
at this very moment the sun is burning my arm as im sat at my desk with my laptop, my brother is lying on my bed talking to me about strange things.
"what word did thomas edison invent?"
"i dunno, piss you."
"no...hello"
"ive heard that before"
"yeah it was on tv"
this is the only kind of conversation him and i ever engage in, or asking each other favours, when im home anyway. which i havnt been recently, ive been staying at friends houses for a while.
alot of things seem to be changing this summer, and im not looking forward to going back to college, at all.
i only just scrapped by last term. blech
so this morning my phone went off at 8am which woke me rather horribly...i answered the second time around and im pretty sure i fell asleep while whoever it was on the phone was still talking to me, oops.
then my brother came in and started talking at me and asking me to dye his 'hawk...god why doesnt anybody want me to sleep!!?!?!
i am so tired.
and i want to paint things.
and talk on the phone to someone who i could just talk to for hours with no awkward silences and never run out of things to say. i miss that.
and also, i think i have a strange obsession with bad weather, i have a sort of fascination with natural disasters in the form of fast winds. hurricanes and the like. i find this rather odd.
i was sitting in the living room in ali's house next to the windows looking out over the lake and the rain was pissing down and the trees were bending over and branches were falling into the lake and i found myself wishing for a bad storm that would give me an adrenalin rush.
i keep having really strange dreams, last night i was on my way somewhere when i saw a family where my grandparents used to live selling puppies and kittens but they all had certain things about them that wouldnt really be that way, like the kittens having an actual hair style? and the dogs being strange colours, and i recall wanting a dog that was half purple and half orange or red...
im getting chubby, i dislike this, ive always wished i had a different body structure, one more fragile and tiny.
i have a friend who wants to look like iggy pop, hes awesome lol.
ive been more into photography at the moment, ive been "into" it for years now but i have small periods of time where i dont take any photos and then suddenly i get an idea and i cant stop taking photos and ive been sortve like that at the moment, and i think my insomnia is coming back, which isnt a good thing as i often dont sleep for a week or two at a time...
at this very moment the sun is burning my arm as im sat at my desk with my laptop, my brother is lying on my bed talking to me about strange things.
"what word did thomas edison invent?"
"i dunno, piss you."
"no...hello"
"ive heard that before"
"yeah it was on tv"
this is the only kind of conversation him and i ever engage in, or asking each other favours, when im home anyway. which i havnt been recently, ive been staying at friends houses for a while.
alot of things seem to be changing this summer, and im not looking forward to going back to college, at all.
i only just scrapped by last term. blech
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i wouldn't worry about college if you get stuck cheat ... it always works
Oh, and ydont look at all chubby to me. We often harbour self-images which are rather dislocated from actuality. A common affliction is to imagine ourselves as rather more rotund than we actually are. A symptom of the aspirational-never-satisfied nature of modern consumer society, some would say.
Insomnia! Yes, Id noticed that last night mdear!
Look forward to seeing those new photographs you're working on....
l8rs babe.
m