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It's the day before christmas. The presents have been bought and everything is set for christmas eve. Tomorrow I will visit my family, eat, cheer, open presents.. and pretend to be happy. Or maybe if I'm lucky I wont have to pretend. Some days are good days right?

She called me yesterday and we talked for the second time since she moved. She's been living there for about two months now and I would have thought that everything should have been allright by now. That I woluld have been able to move on.. It was kind of an awkward conversation and none of us spoke much. It's weird that we can't speak to eachother like we used to. We used to talk about anything and everything but now we mostly sat silent listening to eachother breathing.

The first time she called was three weeks after our break. She told me she was dating someone. My respons was to hangup, stand up.. and then smash my hand through a closet door a couple of times. Before that day I didn't consider my self to be very emotional.. hmm.. boy was I wrong.

But like I said earlier.. somedays are good days. I just hope the good days soon will outnumber all the bad days.

Merry Christmas...