coloreddreams

So here's the real truth.....I'm scared to be a mother....I truly am....

What if I end up like my mother?

What if I can't take the normal irritations from a child?

What if I just completely fail?












My other fear?


What if we try and try and try for the rest of our lives and are never successful?








My fear paralyzes me?

anyone know much about the drug Clomid?

stolen from kittie

[A is for age:] - 24.....25 in 6 days
[B is for booze of choice:] - mudslides
[C is for career:] - Bath and Body Works
[D is for your dad's name:] - John
[E is for essential items to bring to a party:] - cell phone and a condom.....lol
[F is for favorite song at the moment:] - gold digger by...
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Hope you had a wonderful turkey day and you all ate until you were stuffed....I did!

Stop over and wish the beautiful Edenkitty a very happy birthday!

Love ya girl!

I'm back!!!!!



Big thanks to surrealthemuse

don't have the money to renew......

To anyone who cares, I'm leaving SG....people are pretty selfish on here and don't seem to really care if you are handling some hard things in your life...I used to love that this site was exactly the opposite of that.....so goodbye...november 14th will be my final day

so...kick me in the chest when I just regained my breath

my mom called me this morning....she wanted to talk to my husband...something was wrong

the police found my partially decomposed uncle's body dead on the beach of california....it sat partially in the water.....it's only idetifying quality was his fingerprints...he was last heard from on a phone message on Friday...they found him monday, on his...
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Hey all!

Just wanted to update....I don't have much new news....but I wanted to advance from the last entry (it was depressing seeing that one every day)....



Miss you all!

so much for my great week....my mom just called and my foster sister's father just died of colon cancer.....he was only 69...the funeral is tomorrow....that's where we're headed

I figured that it was about time to send you all an
update on what has been happening in my life. Some of
you know some of the things that have been going on
since earlier this year, but I'm sure that not all of
you know everything....so I want to bring you up to
speed.

Earlier this year (around March), I went in for...
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