collapsingstar

If there is one thing I'm really bad at, it's keeping in touch, updating or doing anything that requires maintainence. I just cant seen to keep it moving. My life is all about building up momentum then riding it out as long as I can.

Cleaning my apartment? Sure I'll get it spicandspan and maybe for a short while try to keep it that way but one big night of booze or dope and it'll slide. It never gets really dirty but it stays messy for months.

Keeping in touch with my best of friends: OK I just realized that my oldest and bestest friend is doing a staged reading of Hamlet tonight with these Amazing actors in a beautiful church somewhere downtown but I don't know which one and now I've neglected him again...FUCK! Havent seen him in months. Oldest friend, could hardly be a better friend and I never see him. Why? Fuked if I know. I always enjoy hangin out but I can't put the move on my motovation.

Ok who cares right? getit together, just do it and all that crap right? I seriously need a great philosophical boot to the head. Maybe LySDi is the answer.

I'll let you know.