colinism

Ok so my weekend was good, good friends went out had tons of fun spent wayyy too much money. but today I woke up and I knew something was wrong, I had no idea what it was I just knew I felt like total crap emotionally. Well I called My best friend Amy and I immediately felt better she had to go and slowly the feeling came back, then I called Rod, thank god for that angry little asian because even tho it was mostly me venting and using him as a sounding board it got me thinking in the right direction. so several hours of introspection and one hot bath to clear my head later I got it all figured out. Seems I had been slipping back into old habits, long story on that one..... Short version in between missing the hell out of amy who has not been around nearly as much as I would like and forgetting my own sense of self worth comes from me and not from finding it in other people I slipped into a funk.

You know this blog was alot more articulate when I thought it up about 20 minutes earlier but seeing as how the important part is that I feel a hell of alot better Ahh fuck it all.

And because they were so popular I bring you a lap full of pussy.




Further edited to say again I really love all you guys.