coley

Do I walk with confidence?
I feel like I slouch.
Someone told me I "look like I like myself."
I think I do.
I am afraid of judgement, but who's not?
Confidence?
By whose definition?
I have a semi-ok self esteem.
I have a pretty decent level of self worth.
Not egotistical, just fine with who I am and what I have become.
I think that I tend to have better morals than most "Christians" (whatever that means.)
Sex = Yes please.
Drinking = Not so much.
Smoking = Never.
Lies = When it keeps people from being hurt... (Tactfulness would be a better word.)
I dont like it when people judge me.
I know its an automatic thing that we ALL do.
I do it.
Its ok.
Just dont be mean.
Some people dont know when to shut their mouths.
Rude.
It takes all kinds I suppose.
I try to be nice...
Not come off like I am better than anyone.
Cause I'm not and I dont think that I am.
Why do some people think its not ok to be with someone outside of your "ethnicity?"
I dont like that.
It makes me want to date only people that arent 'caucasian.'
Just to piss other people off.
I know that culture is important to some people and thats ok BUT
Arent love and attraction a BIT more important.
"I'm only going to date a mexican because he has the same values, ethics, blah blah blah as me."
Whatever.
Love him/her if you love him/her and dont let anything get in the way of that.
Seriously.
Bologna.
I remember when I sang the "Oscar Meyer" theme song at my graduation with my best friend.
That was great.
(Its really not THAT great, but its a good memory.)
Were you a nerd in high school?
How would you know that you were popular.
I feel like I was a dunce.
It was a few years ago, but I think that the attitude that you have in life during high school tends to stay with you for a bit.
If youre a nerd in high school, you tend to be a nerd outside of school.
BUT what happens to a 'jock' after high school?
I thought only a tiny percentage of people actually make it to play a professional sport...
So what happened to the rest?
Please, enlighten me.
I wish that I could see some people from school because I dont know if they would have expected me to look the way that I do now.
Its a weird thought.
I know they would be shocked, but thats ok.
I love my mom.
I miss my dad.
My step dad is a pretty good guy though.
I want to keep ranting but I dont really want to type anymore.
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