so, i ran into someone i really didn't want to see, so soon. it's obvious i am not doing as good as i should be. self medicating is getting old. this is not where i ever thought i would be at 26. anyways, i hope they didn't see the tears in my eyes... tried to act strong, and failed...surreal: 
sometimes, it has been my experience, putting on that strong front can do more damage than good. im not advocating totally losing it or anything, but allowing yourself to simply FEEL what you are experiencing can help you get out of a rut...
sending you good thoughts and hugs
Cry if you wanna,Scream if you gotta.
Fuck the neighbors,Let it out!