ok so life is quite dissmal.ive been up here for what seems like centuries im really losing it.im so lonely i havnt connected with anyone. i meet and talk to people everyday but it seems as if im not affected by anyone.i just have the same conversations with everyone so placid and grey.im not sure if its just me and im just to depressed to really communicate with people or if i just hate this place more than i thought and im forcing myself to get out.but never the less i am getting out next week.moving back to middletown. atleast i can just kick it in the city until school starts.but i really hate middletown i love my freinds but the place is so haunting and desolate . nothing there but stripmalls and crackhouses wich i guess holds some value for beauty atleast more than this yuppie ridden cow town.ahh im to bored and cold to type anymore.im just anelessly blahing so sweet dreams to all of you
