coffeewhiskey

I'm not drinking till friday, which is weird, maybe its only because I'm bored or sometimes my anxiety wakes me in the middle of the night and convinces me I'm an alcoholic, funny though this is the same anxiety that has convinced me I am about to die in an earthquake, tsunami, heart attack or my father is dead or there are lethal gasses leaking in from the garage giving me cancer. Oh anxiety you big bully you. I had a big lunch hoping to exercise it off but the weather is so poopie outside I have nothing to do. Suppose I will read, or rent a movie. It's strange not being hung over in the slightest in the morning, it's like time traveling I feel like i do at 12 at 10.
I'm so curious about the lack of trust in the world.