coffeewhiskey

I have to remind myself I lasted a long time alone, that it was worth it, that fighting with the lampshade for light is worth it, I have to remind myself to go to sleep because i have work in seven hours. I have to remind myself that there is hope, that I can blame the keyboard on bad spelling and that that little line red line under big words only means I'm adventurous when I go to say things like incandescent and arbitrary. when I go to tell myself how I feel through a screen and a small mac laptop that irreplaceable isn't an ominous word I should hope to use when referring to that silly girl that has me all wrapped up indefinitely.