coffeewhiskey

been working out again, which means my room is littered with water bottles and deep breaths between 40 sit up sets.
still nothing to write about.
still writers block.
tegan and sara is the best music to work out to, always has been.
going away party on friday and going away on wednesday.
I'm looking forward to getting out of this city full of fruitless crushes and empty bottles.
not to say the next will be any different but not knowing is half the point.
i need to shave and shower, tomorrow.
I have heartburn.
Ive found the girls i like are really just the girls i like who i am when i am around.
and how much of a different person i am when i am around them as opposed to people i am ok with or at the worst people who intimidate me.
three different sean, I gotta find out how to be just that one.
and the girl i like, I'm gonna miss her, our excuses to roll around in the grass, how easy she makes it for me to be able to roll in the grass with her.
to be able to let all that matters go.