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I'm dying to buy more books. Dune, Sandman, The book of laughter and forgetting, Mansfield park..
I want to open a book and fall into a wonderful story, one that consumes me whole, beating heart and all.
I ♥ books

Anyone in here know any Latin?

Cause I want to get the phrase In Omnia Paratus tattoed on me, but I hear rumours that when you're a girl.. It is supposed to be In Omnia Parata?
'Tis true? Anyone? Huh? Huh?

I wish I could take a picture that would justify all my adorable freckles.
Helloo Mr. Sun (yes, I do protect myself).

I want to crawl up in bed with you and after I have kissed you for eternity, I want to fall asleep with your arms wrapped around me.

Stuff that has made me happy today:

My leopard print dress. It's awesome, I don't need to wear underwear underneath it.
Have a lovely recipe for great iced tea without the bitterness.
My financial issues are probably solved.
Reading Harry Potter and The order of the Phoenix outside, cause it's actually warm and sunny.
I now have a tan and lots more freckles on my...
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I wish I wasn't so tense all the time. I wish I could truly relax, just for a minute, for my shoulders and neck to stop aching.
I am in a state of constant alert, though the meds are slowly kicking in I am still waiting for a panic attack.
I sleep all day cause getting out of bed means facing the world, and something...
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Tiny victory today. Kept postponing going to the gym until early evening when I finally managed to kick my own butt, kept the anxiety under control and so I went to have an okay work-out.
Didn't push myself as hard as I usually do cause I was a bit weirded out while I was at the gym but baby steps, right?
Have cancelled out on...
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My head hurts so bad. I've been crying and crying since Monday, I hate being back to this state of panic and anxiety. It haven't been this bad in almost two years and I hardly remember how I got through it.
Managed to calm myself down using some meditation techniques and whatnot but I'm exhausted.
I hope I'll wake up tomorrow, somewhat more stable, so...
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I've had a somewhat interesting weekend. Last night mom and I shared two bottles of wine, one bottle of Baileys and then one bottle of whiskey.
We laughed and cried. Mostly we cried. My eyes are still puffy.
It is a strange and painful thing, to hold my mother in my arms, crying and sobbing into my shoulder.
I can't remember what started off our...
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