coffeelove

I feel like I need to cleanse myself. Spiritually, mentally. Something.
Am so drained. Constantly. I keep myself so busy. I try to sit down to enjoy some peace and quiet.
But I can't.
I can't sit still, can't stay still. I need constant entertainment.
And if not.. Then I sleep. I choose to sleep rather than stay awake if I have nothing to do.
I feel like I need some discipline. Some kind of order in my life.
Or perhaps my thoughts need it.
I know I need something but I don't know what.
And if it turns out it is love I need.. Well then.. Just fucking shoot me.