coffeelove

The father of my little sis (actually my cousin) died last night. A long time alcoholic, his liver finally failed, soon after all other organs stopped functioning.
She called me while I was at a friends house, went to pick her up and gave her a hug when she sat down in the car. And she started sobbing. She criend and cried into my shoulder, it broke my heart to see her like that.
I have never seen her cry. She hasn't had a easy life, yet I still have never seen her cry or broken down like that.
I offered her to spend the night at my house, since her mother is a total asshole who couldn't care less.
We watched some horror movies, she fell asleep and I stayed up 'till seven in the morning, just watching over her.
I wish I could help her, not only dealing with the loss of a father she hasn't spoken to in almost a decade but also with her still living with her mother and how it is wearing her down.
I'd offer her to live with me but I can't. I live too far off from the city, there are no buses and I can't drive her around all day. I wish I could help her financially, so she could get her license, get a car, own apartment.
I want to do so much for her. I also sometimes wish it wasn't a burden I have to carry.
But I am the only one she trusts, the only one she opens up to.
She is my sister in heart and soul, and there is nothing I wouldn't do for her.
♥