codyad

so today i swore i was only spending 100 bucks on cds and that was it. i try to reward myself when i think i've done good things like for instance surviving a month at hobby lobby, having 3 different jobs in a week, and hmmm well i dont think theres a third. oh wait i got it. not hanging out whit my friends all summer. yea thats an achievement but the wrong kind, more on that latter though. so i really spent only $107 on cds, and my purchases include.

Megadeth- Killing is My Buisness......and Buisness is Good
Metallica- Ride the Lightning and Master of Puppets
Slayer- South of Heaven
Job for a Cowboy- Genesis
Arch Enemy- Doomsday Machine and Anthems of Rebellion
Daath- The Hinderers

yes im kinda on a thrash metal kick in case you cant tell. so far i've been pretty impressed with all of'em, especially megadeth, but there a whole nother story as to why which i wont get to. if you wanna read up on it then google dave mustain and metallica feud. you'll get an answer.

ok so this summer none of my good high school friends are back, so what do i do with my nights. absolutely nothing, or i watch tv or a movie. *sigh* o well. another weird thing happen a friend of mine from high school is now engaged. i came to the realization of how many of my friends are taken and will prolly get hitched in the next 10 years. i then saw myself in the role of the crazy artist friend who happens to have a showing in the town you live in and wants to know if he can crash at your place. yea that'll be me probably. i swear i have commitment issues cause im to real about what might happen and how crushed i'd be if i would, and considering my parents history of divorces i would say they played some major role in doing this to me, but hey what are ya gonna do i guess.

im never really looking for a certain person. im always looking more for friendship i guess then just a hey we should hook up and fuck and then get to know each other. which is why i'll never have a one night stand cause theres no more emotional connection, so its pointless to me atleast. it sucks though cause im always on the side of liking someone and them not liking me back. well atleast i think so. no ones ever told me they like me, and i think people should be more open about that and not so high school-ish about it and just keep it inside and never tell someone. i always thought that was my problem, or atleast thats what everyone told me. thats fucking dumb though. gotta paly hard to get or else theres nothing there thats entising the opposite to come after you. FUCK THAT SHIT! ARRRGH!!! sorry for that. maybe people are right when they said i was to mysterious and cerebral for my own good. someone once said i was one puzzle that neither i nor some1 from the opposite sex could figure out. i felt kinda good about that in a weird way.

blah im do talking about this stuff. there more to life that finding your opposite, and unfortunatly i've wasted everyones time by making you read all of it.



this is me last sept/oct sitting on my friend nick on kcai green. yea schools creeping closer.