I have been in a weird mood again. I am worried about school. Worried about my future. Everything seems so uncertain for me it is hard to grasp on to what I am doing with myself.

I miss staring into the sky and wishing for the sunlight to come back to me. I am so tired. I haven't slept in so long, and the nightmares...
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I am really done dealing with this broad. She can't communicate about shit that bothers her, and cannot think for herself. Maybe I am just tired and examining shit too deep... but I doubt it.

Time for an update:

I have an interview for a Fire Dept on April 14th. Also, I went to get screened for my learning disability... i have to wait for testing. the school is going to get back to me about it.

I am also quitting my job and picking up a work study program with the VA. I'll keep shopping for bad-ass jobs that...
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Time for an update:

I'm doing a bit better these days... I started back going to a therapist over at the VA center for my PTSD, which is working out really well. The navy gave me the 20k they owed me, but after taxes it was down to $13,200. Bastards. But it was enough to get me out of debt and put a coin in...
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These days I am not doing too well. Physically im okay, but my head is out of wack. My girlfriends grandfather was killed in a car wreck yesterday so she left and went home to Chicago to handle business. I miss her.

Also I miss my family something fierce today. I want to see my niece... my adorable little rugrat niece that loves to chop...
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Oh my god, time for a real update.

So, my girlfriend is moving in with me in a few weeks. Things are going good and for some reason, all the things that would seem to piss me off just don't apply to her. She can be a brat, childish, and impossible to deal with at times, but she has a good heart and she realizes...
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Bill O'Reilly is a fucking tool. Read the asshole fuckface roundup #29...

Back in portland, getting ready to go back to school!

This year I have a whole lot of traveling on business to Chicago and New York lined up. We shall see how it all works out, hopefully in my favor. Things are going well for the most part, I am waiting on the money the military still owes me. I started physical therapy with the...
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I am escaping to Seattle for the New Years weekend...

I turned down the training mission but took the mission to work NYC fleet week. I think it is the best thing for me right now.

Hope everyone had a great holiday; mine sucked because I cannot stand my family. Shitty shitty shitty.