Looooong weekend.
I think I am going to let the men I was seeing go. I am tired of putting all this effort into my relationships and for what? I met one of the guys I am seeing girlfriend at the mall and she was soooooo sweet. She recognized me from myspace and gave me 50% off at the store she works at. It made me feel horrible. She seems so nice. And he is, in fact, a dick.
It made me think about the nice guys finish last thing. I dont know if its true- But it does seem to me that I am attracted more to 'bad boys' then good ones. I want a good one now. The quote one of my men is getting tattooed on himself is "As bad as I may seem, I take comfort that it is no where near as bad as I am". And its true. He is bad. Bad for me emotionally.
I got a myspace message from a good guy who wanted to see me, but he is in Iraq and I dont do internet relationships. I liked him, but we kinda had a falling out about a month ago. The message said pretty much that the reason he quit talking to me is that I dont talk about my son, and if we were going to develop into something serious, I should talk about him more. It made me think about my e-persona and how I come across. Maybe I protect myself too much here. I like comming off as a strong smart bitch, but in real life I am an insecure girly-girl.
I want to start being myself more on here- but I think that anyone who reads my blogs regularly knows who I truly am. Maybe better then I know myself.
I think I am going to let the men I was seeing go. I am tired of putting all this effort into my relationships and for what? I met one of the guys I am seeing girlfriend at the mall and she was soooooo sweet. She recognized me from myspace and gave me 50% off at the store she works at. It made me feel horrible. She seems so nice. And he is, in fact, a dick.
It made me think about the nice guys finish last thing. I dont know if its true- But it does seem to me that I am attracted more to 'bad boys' then good ones. I want a good one now. The quote one of my men is getting tattooed on himself is "As bad as I may seem, I take comfort that it is no where near as bad as I am". And its true. He is bad. Bad for me emotionally.
I got a myspace message from a good guy who wanted to see me, but he is in Iraq and I dont do internet relationships. I liked him, but we kinda had a falling out about a month ago. The message said pretty much that the reason he quit talking to me is that I dont talk about my son, and if we were going to develop into something serious, I should talk about him more. It made me think about my e-persona and how I come across. Maybe I protect myself too much here. I like comming off as a strong smart bitch, but in real life I am an insecure girly-girl.
I want to start being myself more on here- but I think that anyone who reads my blogs regularly knows who I truly am. Maybe better then I know myself.
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and thanks
*blush*
*hugs*