i have to update my journal, because if i dont raulduke77 said he would cut off my balls with a pair of revlon tweezers. Sound icky. And since i like my balls here goes.... I am at work or the gym latey. I am hanging out with a girl that has to lie to he militantly old school racist middle eastern Jewsih parents so they dont know shes spending time with me.........Fun. I am to old for this, but i care for her and i cant just abandon her because she does need me in her life. I am her rock. Its hard though, ive been doing this on and off for almost four years now. At this point i would love to be selfish and find a woman who would be more apt to marry and settle down a little. You see im a hopeless romantic and i really like the thought a wife and a house and all that true love shit. I guess i need to keep on looking. Never rush love, it wont work if you do.