cobalt

ALCHEMICAL APPARITION

(A strong instinctive fight to retain his
native cheerfulness unimpaired

naturally a plentiful stream of life

and humor, a sense of sufficiency and
exuberance,
giving ease.

But now it caused tension

there was any difference
exactly
always thinking of women
or a woman
day in
day out
and that frustrated him.
He could not get free,
ashamed.

Incapable of pushing

the presence of the girl made it impossible.

Not despising himself, nor the girl; (but)
the net result in him of the experience.)

Uncomfortable in all definitions --->
Wife, mistress, mother, friend, woman --->

another study of the relationship of life and love

she can love, feel, respond freely, act impulsively

a creature of whim/ of impulse/ of change

a pure spirit, an incarnation of the goddess of love

her face and her smile
the statue of the love goddess

difficulties surviving in the real world

of geographical boundaries, marriage laws, child bearing

the moments lose their sunlight when they become months and years)