fucking fuckity fuck.
i logged out instead of hitting "add blog"...wow, I really am out of it.
suffice it to say, i was whining a bit.
but i had added some poetry...which (thank god) was a cut/paste job.
jeezus.
the highlights of the last couple weeks>>>
i can't wait for IRON MAN.
not seeing whom i was trying to see anymore...which sucks
donkey balls, but such things cannot be helped sometimes.
i hate myself.
wellnotreally...just a little moment of emo ness.
moving in with my friend grant, in cupertino. yay for houses, instead
of apts!
phillip is still looking for a better job, and his bf is still not working...
which is why i am moving.
daniel has had more work done on his back, and i look forward to seeing
more of it.
i long for my own ink...i have to find something for me and my sister.
the bat for mom---a mother's day tattoo, how quaint.
been watching a lot of teevee, running around like a chicken with my
head cut off.
i don't think i've been this busy in my entire life. it's been a blast.
but i do look fwd to just sitting down and being mellow again.
i look fwd to finding a balance betwixt work and play, btn.
shawn and someone else who can hold my heart in the palm
of her hand...
and hopefully won't squash it, like i have done to others...tho,
that would be fair, wouldn't it?
to feel that pain.
k i'm getting whiney again. i have to STOP.
despite the suckage in the love dept, where waves are often casting
poor sailors on the rocks...
things are quite quite good. shawn's going to be in school longer than
expected, which means I am taking french over the summer.
work is work, but it is still all kinds of awesome, and i look to the future,
when i will be no longer a temp.
i miss having insurance, lemme tell ya. oh well. c'est la vie.
there have been many birthdays, and they have all been awesome.
i am now talking to a former friend, whom i'd had a major blow out with,
close to 4-5 yrs ago.
what goes around comes around and goes around again.
i have been writing more...as has gretta.
high school reunion coming up.
facebook eats up way too much of my time...damn my zombie!!
WWZ is still the bestest book ever.
The Well of Loneliness is always going to make my heart/headache.
I really understand Virginia Woolf a lot more...which is lame, in a way.
so much to say, yet so much not to say...
i shall see you on the flip side.
"Drag behind"
kicking and screaming
my feet hit the dirt
"I love u"
it rings in my ears
bleeds from my eyes.
I drag behind
lagging feelings of regret
I am on the street
running
towards you
away from you
fighting tooth & Nail
wishing to speak
but dying to keep silent
"hold my head"
up high
standing above the crowd
wishing for something
never attainable
fighting myself
you
the world
Like Atlas...
I carry your World
upon my shoulders.
Such a Heavy burden
my Cross to bear.
you,
Hold my head in your hands
tell me that you love me
that you would keep me if you could
again and again
if you could
if
"The Flag"
The flag waives proudly
high in the sky
there are few gathered 'round it
but they are joined in spirit
by those who have not made it
this far.
hats are tipped, and eyes are dabbed
we have every right to be fiercely
devoted, as we have stood firm
against tierney
invasion
and destruction.
long shall She waive, guiding all
those who Should need Her,
towards Freedom and Justice.
"water of life"
water is merely water
but that which burns
will fuel you much better,
faster, quicker--
water of life
which shall is be?
the path that is broken
the fears that corrupt us
none shall hold sway
so long as reverence is paid,
to that which binds us together.
"Irish blood"
thick
green
roguish
stick together
nothing is kinder
quite like the bonds of family.
"wish"
I miss your smile
I miss your breath
depth, lost only on you
I wish you were here.
"take me home"
I want to see you
your face
your smile
take me home tonight.
take me to where I can let go
and let it be
let live all those things that I
try to forget
try to push away
all those things you hate to see me hide
take me home
to where we can lay down
and rest our weary heads
I long for the sleep of the dead
or the Bliss of lovers, long familiar
with each others touch.
i logged out instead of hitting "add blog"...wow, I really am out of it.
suffice it to say, i was whining a bit.
but i had added some poetry...which (thank god) was a cut/paste job.
jeezus.
the highlights of the last couple weeks>>>
i can't wait for IRON MAN.
not seeing whom i was trying to see anymore...which sucks
donkey balls, but such things cannot be helped sometimes.
i hate myself.
wellnotreally...just a little moment of emo ness.
moving in with my friend grant, in cupertino. yay for houses, instead
of apts!
phillip is still looking for a better job, and his bf is still not working...
which is why i am moving.
daniel has had more work done on his back, and i look forward to seeing
more of it.
i long for my own ink...i have to find something for me and my sister.
the bat for mom---a mother's day tattoo, how quaint.
been watching a lot of teevee, running around like a chicken with my
head cut off.
i don't think i've been this busy in my entire life. it's been a blast.
but i do look fwd to just sitting down and being mellow again.
i look fwd to finding a balance betwixt work and play, btn.
shawn and someone else who can hold my heart in the palm
of her hand...
and hopefully won't squash it, like i have done to others...tho,
that would be fair, wouldn't it?
to feel that pain.
k i'm getting whiney again. i have to STOP.
despite the suckage in the love dept, where waves are often casting
poor sailors on the rocks...
things are quite quite good. shawn's going to be in school longer than
expected, which means I am taking french over the summer.
work is work, but it is still all kinds of awesome, and i look to the future,
when i will be no longer a temp.
i miss having insurance, lemme tell ya. oh well. c'est la vie.
there have been many birthdays, and they have all been awesome.
i am now talking to a former friend, whom i'd had a major blow out with,
close to 4-5 yrs ago.
what goes around comes around and goes around again.
i have been writing more...as has gretta.
high school reunion coming up.
facebook eats up way too much of my time...damn my zombie!!
WWZ is still the bestest book ever.
The Well of Loneliness is always going to make my heart/headache.
I really understand Virginia Woolf a lot more...which is lame, in a way.
so much to say, yet so much not to say...
i shall see you on the flip side.
"Drag behind"
kicking and screaming
my feet hit the dirt
"I love u"
it rings in my ears
bleeds from my eyes.
I drag behind
lagging feelings of regret
I am on the street
running
towards you
away from you
fighting tooth & Nail
wishing to speak
but dying to keep silent
"hold my head"
up high
standing above the crowd
wishing for something
never attainable
fighting myself
you
the world
Like Atlas...
I carry your World
upon my shoulders.
Such a Heavy burden
my Cross to bear.
you,
Hold my head in your hands
tell me that you love me
that you would keep me if you could
again and again
if you could
if
"The Flag"
The flag waives proudly
high in the sky
there are few gathered 'round it
but they are joined in spirit
by those who have not made it
this far.
hats are tipped, and eyes are dabbed
we have every right to be fiercely
devoted, as we have stood firm
against tierney
invasion
and destruction.
long shall She waive, guiding all
those who Should need Her,
towards Freedom and Justice.
"water of life"
water is merely water
but that which burns
will fuel you much better,
faster, quicker--
water of life
which shall is be?
the path that is broken
the fears that corrupt us
none shall hold sway
so long as reverence is paid,
to that which binds us together.
"Irish blood"
thick
green
roguish
stick together
nothing is kinder
quite like the bonds of family.
"wish"
I miss your smile
I miss your breath
depth, lost only on you
I wish you were here.
"take me home"
I want to see you
your face
your smile
take me home tonight.
take me to where I can let go
and let it be
let live all those things that I
try to forget
try to push away
all those things you hate to see me hide
take me home
to where we can lay down
and rest our weary heads
I long for the sleep of the dead
or the Bliss of lovers, long familiar
with each others touch.
the poetry is great, i always have wished i could write any meaningful poetry!