clubmix1996

Just a panic attack [28 Apr 2004|02:59pm]
I think I have been having panic attacks lately. My chest gets all tight and I am having trouble breathing. It also feels like my heart is racing. I'm sure it's fine, It may have to do something with the amount of caffiene I have been taking in lately. I woke up hella late today. Sucks because soon I have to leave for the slut hell, and I don't want to. I need to call Tasha. The house mother at scores. I am excited about Scores because it's so busy in there all of the time. Great so whatever. I talked to um...Fermicirrus last night. I never know people real names. He seems like a kid I would hang out with. I swear. I was thinking about this last night. All the people I hang out with are in and out of control. And I sinply love it to death. I got a new wig, I hope to take pics of it tonight at work so everyone can see. It's not one of the ones I was intending to buy. It's another one from Prascilla's. But it's all soft and nice, to the max. I feel less ugly now, I suppose. Maybe. If I wanna feel pretty I just gotta feel it. You know? I mean I can do stuff that makes me feel pretty. The stuff I have been slacking on lately. I just wanna get addicted to that stuff, like I usually do. I don't know how I survive sometimes. Sometimes, it impossible to look forward. i just have to kinda yell inside to get those voices to shut up about it. I don't care where I end up. I really don't I just wanna have fun. Fuck bills, but I gotta go pay them. I may need to shave as well.... I hope not. K you need me to go, so do i

I get knocked down!