Every time I go to edit my journal I ask the same question. Where do I start? I really need to get in the habit of updating more often, though I think I am the only person who every really looks at it. I guess it is more for the therapy of typing my day to day or in my most recent times month to month activities. I guess my lack of updates would be due to the lack of internet access. The last house I lived in, I was glad just to have electricity, so internet was a distant thought. I took my laptop to work, but being in a retail enviroment with people in and out of my office, had to be PC and no porn, no matter how tame could be viewed. Now though I have moved into a new house, with some of my best friends. We now have cable intetnet access, and I am wonering how I spent the last 6 month without it. Work still sucks as always. I am so tired of retail 8 years of it has taught me one thing, that is I hate retail, and while I came to this conclusion long ago. I am just too lazy and in some weird sense comfortable. I can't complain about the money I make, as it is more than enough to get by. I just don't find any of the work I do rewarding or redeming in any way. If I could only get my shit together I would be more than happy to quit and explore europe as has been the fantasy ever sense my last trip to London. As I said before I am finally in a happy living space in life, so that makes a big difference. I may go back to Portland State, and stay here in PDX the town that I will always truly love. Although my visits to San Diego have always spurned a desire for continuing sun shine and beautiful warm ocean waters. Well, I guess that is how I will leave this entry. No more sure of things then when I started but at least I got them written down. 