Wine, that is the one thing food I got from her. My love of wine has grown, and while my love for her has not deminished, I do now see that I was blind and stupid to the fact that sje never cared about me. Maybe she was using me as my cousin said, but using me for what? Certainly it was not sex. I am by no means rich. Sure I may have spoiled her a bit. I enjoy paying for thiings, it's just who I am. Who am I? I am just a 26 almost 27 year old virgin, who does not know what he want s to do with his life. I am sick of my job, I want to quit, but must wait so that they fire me, and then I can collect unemployment while I look for a new job. I want to go back to school, get my life together, meet some one special. Or not. I am just drunk and confused. Not sure what is up and what is down. Depression has a funny way of doing that to peollwe i quiot. later..........