clockworkjoe

well i predicted on the 24th, another lonely Christmas, and well i was right with another unpleasent surprise. This has had to have been the worst christmas ever. Maybe this is that one christmas that comes in everyones life where the childhood magic is lost and years later, after droll Christmas' roll in year after year, you have that magic christmas down the road and it reafrims joy. The magic died today. through the pine smell of a live tree, death was overpowering. Items that did not fit were givin, and 'useful' items from all filtered in. Above death in the air, and feeling like no one listened to anything i said, i can imagine a better time. I really miss someone, and could imagine Christmas with them, a Christmas that never came, and never will. Merry Christmas Kelly........... i miss you.