Saturday Nov 06, 2004

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I seriously hate reality.

I hate more the fact that I refuse to grow up.

I Hate EVEN MORE the fact that reality is forcing me to grow up.


And I will never turn into my father.






I had to miss SKinny Puppy last night. I did the responsible thing and not spend the last of my money on a concert.


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That is all that comeso ut whnre I try to think of anything to say . I cant concentrate long enough to even come up with a...............................lost my triant of thought again. Couldnt even finish that sentance.



I fucking hatemyself for not being able to focus with anything.l I hgave all these feeeling and virews and images in my head but nothing evcer comeso ut becasue Ihave no fucking talent in regard to writing, drawing,. singer, acting, musioc, or even fucking speaking.

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mistress_m:
That's a really good picture smile
devil_bitch:
Being a grown does really suck. But you don't have to be a grown up all the time. I am sorry that you had to miss Skinny Puppy. I didn't go either because I couldn't afford it. Maybe next time. I am planning on going to see Ministry. I need to get out and have a good time. Maybe I should come up and take you out!! You need to blow off some steam.
Everything that you are feeling I totally understand. I will be 30 soon and I feel like I have nothing figured out. But what I am learning is that whatever decisions you make nothing is ever final. The door that you opened just leads to more doors and more questions. Life is a quest. Focus on being the best you, you can be and the relationships that you build. That to me is what it is really all about. love

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