i'm selfish. i wasnt doing anything tonight and thought that i should go and visit my grandparents who live about half an hour away from me. But in the end i decided not to as i just cant face them at the moment. It makes me to sad to see my 'jedo' (that's granpa) so old and when my 'tayta' looks into my eyes i feel like she can read my soul - i just couldnt face it, face them deal with it whatever. I swear she know's everthing when she talks to me and it un-nerves me. I'm too much of an emotional basket-case to hide this shit from my tribal medicine woman granma.
So i've come home and locked myself in my room and havent spoken to a soul all night. It's funny that i bitch and moan about loneliness all the time but tonight as i left work i just knew that i couldnt have any other humans around me. It's been one of those days. I also have a fuckn bad migraine and have been having dizzy spells all day....
No. I'm selfish.
I've been looking out that window and i can see two red flickering lights in the distance. I'm curious as to what they are and why they are there as they have only just appeared. Tomorrow i think i'll walk down there and check it out. Why have these lights come into my world - in my direct line of vision... someone better have some bloody good answers about this or there will be hell to pay.
At the moment i am surfing the net for mythological stories - i was looking for any greek ones i hadnt seen but now i'm on the hunt for Pheonician History and mythology - if anyone knows of any please send them my way! No i'm not studying and i'm not a student - i'm just interested in it.
Fuck my neighbours are insane - it's a mummy, daddy and werid looking little girl. I can hear them screaming at each other as i type this. The mummy and daddy clearly hate each other and have often woken me up with "No - YOU"RE A FUCKN WHORE" - "NOOOOOOO I HATE YOU" etc etc. They fight like cats and dogs! I just hope that the sex after the constant domestic violence is worth it. Better be damn good. The little girl is strange too - sometimes at night i can hear her calling for her 'daddy" and it freaks me out. She is constantly crying and falling over and torturing their two dogs. She sounds like those little girls out of the Freddy Krueger movies that used to ride those tricycles. When ever i see her out the front of my house she just stops in her tricycle (YES SHE HAS A RED ONE) and stares at me with her big scary eyes. weird weird kid i tell ya.
Tonigh the cd of choice is "Nick cave And The bad Seeds" The best of. I listen to the same track over and over - "Nobody's baby" beautiful song. He's a beautiful soul. I saw him a few weeks ago doing a spoken word thing atthe the State Library - he looked divine in his italian pinstripe suit. I was in the front row grinning like a chesire cat - it was very hard not to get up out of my seat and throw myself at him.
going now. Tired, have a headache, need bed.
So i've come home and locked myself in my room and havent spoken to a soul all night. It's funny that i bitch and moan about loneliness all the time but tonight as i left work i just knew that i couldnt have any other humans around me. It's been one of those days. I also have a fuckn bad migraine and have been having dizzy spells all day....
No. I'm selfish.
I've been looking out that window and i can see two red flickering lights in the distance. I'm curious as to what they are and why they are there as they have only just appeared. Tomorrow i think i'll walk down there and check it out. Why have these lights come into my world - in my direct line of vision... someone better have some bloody good answers about this or there will be hell to pay.
At the moment i am surfing the net for mythological stories - i was looking for any greek ones i hadnt seen but now i'm on the hunt for Pheonician History and mythology - if anyone knows of any please send them my way! No i'm not studying and i'm not a student - i'm just interested in it.
Fuck my neighbours are insane - it's a mummy, daddy and werid looking little girl. I can hear them screaming at each other as i type this. The mummy and daddy clearly hate each other and have often woken me up with "No - YOU"RE A FUCKN WHORE" - "NOOOOOOO I HATE YOU" etc etc. They fight like cats and dogs! I just hope that the sex after the constant domestic violence is worth it. Better be damn good. The little girl is strange too - sometimes at night i can hear her calling for her 'daddy" and it freaks me out. She is constantly crying and falling over and torturing their two dogs. She sounds like those little girls out of the Freddy Krueger movies that used to ride those tricycles. When ever i see her out the front of my house she just stops in her tricycle (YES SHE HAS A RED ONE) and stares at me with her big scary eyes. weird weird kid i tell ya.
Tonigh the cd of choice is "Nick cave And The bad Seeds" The best of. I listen to the same track over and over - "Nobody's baby" beautiful song. He's a beautiful soul. I saw him a few weeks ago doing a spoken word thing atthe the State Library - he looked divine in his italian pinstripe suit. I was in the front row grinning like a chesire cat - it was very hard not to get up out of my seat and throw myself at him.
going now. Tired, have a headache, need bed.
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