Hi guys,
I've not been really active lately because I'm going through a severe relapse of my chronic eye disease. To sum up, I'm in pain 24/24, can hardly open my eyes, they burn like hell, well you can say it : I'm a mess. Won't talk about the emotional rollercoaster, I think you got it.
My problem is a severe case of a disease with an horrible name : meibomian gland dysfunction (link with an explanation / definition haha). To make things simple : let's say my eyes are severely bone dry. I'm the desert queen you know.
There is no cure at the moment (hey girl, do you *really* think we would plague you with something easy to solve? HAHA moment). So I basically have to wait until the storm pass. And it can take... From 2 weeks to a year, or two maybe. Well, I can't even know, and that's the worst part. I can deal with the horrible pain, but the unknown... Oh, girl, that's just a nightmare. Sometimes I wish I could just spend the day lying in bed with my eyes closed and wake up fully recovered, but that's not how life works.
I'm afraid. I totally am. I've been living with this level of pain from may 2014 to august 2015 and things got a little bit better since then (not a miracle but a significant improvement, aaaand I don't even know why or how), and now I am so afraid to be back to square one you have no idea.
I needed to post this because I felt guilty of not being active this week, but my health is a priority, I hope you guys understand. But I promess I'm not disappearing, because I do think SG will help me going through this. Because I need your support to be strong. Please, don't be sorry for me because I absolutely hate pity, what I need right now is just a fucking dose of optimism and uplifting quotes, etc. I have to take a step back, analyze, accept the current situation, and fight with the best weapon of the world : optimism.
And I need you for this too <3
Love, & all
