clea

Christmas has always been my favorite time of year. As a kid I would always go to my grandparents on Christmas Eve and then they would come over on Christmas day and watch us open presents and have dinner. Then the few days after Christmas we would do family visits and dinners. This year on Christmas will mark 10 years since I last saw my Grandpa alive. It will mark 10 years since I last had a decent family Christmas.
This New Years Eve will mark the 10 year anniversary of my Grandpa's death.
I am seriously so bummed. That plus my family is pretty much done. Parents hate each other. Everyone is looking to move out on their own. But on top of that, work just cut my shifts down to 10 fucking hours a week. I can barely pay my bills. And I only have 2 bills to pay at the moment.
I feel like such an ass to my boyfriend because Im always down lately. Plus he is going home for the holidays and I wont get to see him so that just adds to me being bummed about the holidays.

Fuck I would kill too shoot a new set and have the chance it get bought but there is no one in my area that will shoot for SG....


Sorry for the lame blog.
I hope all of you are doing better than me.
xoxo
-Clea

PS Here is a pic of me with my friend Rob and my boyfriend doing what I do best, drinking Rye