claytallica

I'm not really a Creed fan, but the title was better than "Oops... I Did It Again". So I pushed another potential suitor away. I thought I was ready. I thought I could at least try. And I was open and honest about my intentions and fears from the start. I thought it would help and unfortunately it didn't. Just the idea alone and talking to someone gave me so much stress and anxiety that I made myself sick. That's a new one for me. So after about 48hrs of silence, I decided to end it before it could really begin. She was reluctant at first despite being upset and hurt at how distant I had become, but I insisted it was for the best. I really think I'm better off alone. Maybe I've become too stuck in my ways after not being in a relationship for over 5 years. Maybe I've become too disgusted with the human race by all the shit I see on social media and how it makes me feel like I don't fit in anywhere. I really don't know what the future holds. I guess right now I'm content with my cats. And my kids when I get to see them.