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Sunday Sep 21, 2008

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Might be a bit of a downer part of the post... so I spoilered it for anyone that doesn't want to read it.

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If I ever say I'm going to try this type of self-evaluation again, please someone tell me it's a bad idea.

I'm still trying to sift through everything I've taken in. The trouble is that I can't seem to stop analyzing everything. My mind just won't shut down. I know I've always been a thinker, but I think I bit off more than I can chew this time. This is going to take longer than I thought.

But I do know this... the people I am friends with do genuinely care about me... of course this was never in doubt. But I have noticed that some people give off the impression that they want or need to protect me from things... like I'm this fragile thing that can break under strain. Little lies to help spare my feelings about stuff, even from my most trusted friends at times (I've caught my best friend on many occasions doing this). I can understand the desire to do this for someone you care about, and I truly appreciate the gestures. Hell, there isn't a thing I wouldn't do to spare my friends from anything unpleasant if I could. But I prefer to hit my problems head on and get them over with... kind of like taking off a band-aid, yes it is going to hurt a bit at first but you get past it quicker.

There are some other things I've noticed that seem kind of lame to have bother me, but I don't think they are worth mentioning (there I go with my secrets again).

But there are some good things I've noticed too... my close friend trust me... I mean REALLY trust me. They always ask me things like "Can I tell you something you promise not to say to anyone else?" It's funny, I have all my own trust issues but people still trust me. Maybe I'm not giving some people enough credit. This is something I think I'm going to have to re-evaluate.

This is just the surface of things I'm coming across.

Ok, now onto everything else from the weekend...



Friday almost turned into a bad night. MySpaz threw a free show at the club for Spiritualized, but they started ONE HOUR LATE and there for ended ONE HOUR LATE. mad I don't care who you are or that your show is free, but when takes over something that I rely on to alleviate my stress at the end of the week it tends to piss me off. There were a bunch of other regulars that were a bit put out about it as well. Since it was a free show people with no jobs lined up around the block beginning at 5pm while the people that have to work for a living had no hope of showing up so we had to wait until the show got out before we could go in. But the night redeemed itself. Lot's of fun was had because so many of my friends showed up and everyone was determined to make up for the lost time of the night. smile

Saturday, I hung out with one of my friend who wanted to introduce me to some of her friends that were in town. Didn't really do anything special, just a lot of hanging out.

Today has just been dealing with my observations of the weekend.

Tomorrow, I work my first preseason game for the hockey team. Even though these games don't count yet, it will be nice to see the new crop of rookies and try to figure out who is going to make the cut this season.

inga:
you sound like me... over analyzing things...
Sep 21, 2008
nina_kova:
too much time thinking can be a bad thing. or, it could be a good thing. i'm not quite sure, but i tend to do the same things you are talking about. no real advice on it - but, i do it as well.
Sep 22, 2008

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