ck

At this very moment my life is calm and quiet

yet inside my mind there's turmoil and strife

subconciously i choose a no stress lifestyle

because I have a plate full of drama within to deal with already

anxiety, stress, and angst

my dr. says it is deep-rooted. buried deep down. a product of my childhood, my upbringing.

unfortunately, my subconcious safety net has caused more damage than good.

here i am left alone to fix it all. pieces to a puzzle, laying...waiting to take shape. a life fulfilled.

every waking moment of life is precious. it's a shame we don't realize it upon arrival. it should be an innate thought, burnt into our minds. it should be as natural as your heart beating...a given.

fuck. i can go on and on, but it doesn't matter. at least right now it doesn't...