cjac0603

I have just been released from a 6 year relationship, its amazing that after 6 years she can walk away and leave me and have no remorse. After finding out i was basically her saftey net and she stood with me because I was "safe" I did not realize how right she was. I took care of her because she stressed so much so id make dinners and clean up before she got home. I lit candles sometimes to make the place smell nice.. sometimes I ran baths with salts in them. I handled most of the dinners etc... I also stopped doing things I loved to do. My archery, painting, hiking,camping.. I lost who I was and she had no problem taking from me and not giving back. I blinded myself thinking this is what lovers do. Now rhat she has left im beginning to actually look at her, she is not as pretty to me anymore, she is all about money and herself ... and I wanted to be in love. I stripped off my balls and handed them to her pretth much. I thought relationships worked half and half, we give eachother keeping eachother in mind, sure we will hit hard spots here and there but we do this together. I wish we could of been that but she was the knife in a gun fight. I now know i would of been unhappy with here and i never want to live by the happy wife happy life bullshit. Who ever you are ... we are both going to be happy , if i ge out of line bring me home , ill always do the same forn you. Love is not the hard part , the obstacles in life that challenge you to get to the love and break it. Im looking forward to meeting the one who will take on that challenge with me and never give up on me like she did because i sure as hell wont give up on you. Until i meet her.. time to get back to me and find the man im to become.