cipher226

Its amazing how one weekend can turn your entire life right up side down. But then, I did it all to myself and I deserve everything I get thrown my way. Story doesnt even make sense to me to write it all down. Everything was completely out of character for me. And it was all for a girl I was getting set up with and didnt even know before hand.

Now, I may lose my best friend, roommate, ex. She is all of those and so much more to me. We cant make it work between us, but I was hoping we could be friends. But just as with our relationship. I mess it all up. Im losing her trust. Im hurting her. I want nothing more then for her to be happy.

Dont get me wrong, shes ecstatic about me finally meeting someone. Thats not the issue. The problem is, I didnt give her the respect she deserved especially for someone who means so much to me. And now she doesnt trust me, and has every right not to. I wish I knew what to do. Maybe I should let her go... Maybe it would be for the best, since all I can apparently do is hurt her.

The painful moments in life can hurt so much and make you forget the good ones. Or when you look back, the good moments can hurt even more knowing the person who made them may not be around.