Saturday Nov 20, 2004

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It's amazing, the powers sleep has over me. Of all the things to not wake up for.

But at least I've done well in keeping myself distracted today. CC, friends from back home, and another should be calling soon. Too much me time and self-destruction would be bound to pop up.

Much thanks to those sympathetic voices.
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blasfemme:
don't shit where you eat.


biggrin nice to see ya at breakfast.
toneski:
check your e-mail brotha.

Friday Nov 19, 2004

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that was not the kind of cry i had in mind

let's get something straight, too. i took no one off my friends list. i briefly went anonymous. yes, it was stupid and melodramatic, but i'm sick of what this place has become. it brought us together, but ever since it's been a wedge between us.

and now it seems she's dumped me. over e-mail....
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tailofdogma:
jumping head-first isn't any way to go through life, son. Throwing caution to the wind is a motherfucker... just look at me for chrissakes.

Check your email... i'm going this route foday.
contrast:
keep your head up.

Thursday Nov 18, 2004

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maybe it's a part of me you took to a place I hoped it would never go
and maybe that fucked me up so much more than you'll ever know

More and more I wonder if that isn't the case. Seems to do justice as a description of the past three years, anyway.

And where the fuck did those three years go? It feels like...
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tailofdogma:
it's not so much that i was dropping the 'paul' shtick, i just thought that you may want to just do it and get it over with. I can only be the guy inthe middle for so long before I lose it and start killing.

Read my new journal entry, I feel like such a geek and loser, on top of the way I already feel... christ!
dissident_919:
do you go to musictech for school?

Wednesday Nov 17, 2004

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So fucking exhausted.
Thankfully, on this day there were bagels.

Fuck it, nap time.

Update, 12:30: That didn't help much.

So I napped in the Commuter Center. They have nice couches. But I'd chosen to leave myself logged in & signed in on one of the lab computers, one down in the fucking sub-basement, rather than re-do all that shit post-nap. I left three different...
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st_eve_bc:
I took a nap, and now I get to work later.


I am interested to see if you registered for any theater classes/

"dp as hamlet"

ah, how do we know this is in fact a dp post, could it not be the stranger who managed to steal his coveted computer while he slumbered?

friend or foe?
tailofdogma:
Paz's hotness is going to be at the triple-rock on the 21st. Go and get something signed for me...possibly in blood.

Tuesday Nov 16, 2004

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There's no way today's not going to suck.
Off to make-up a quiz. Not prepared for that.
Then a test in art history. Not prepared for that. (although that did work out ok last time)
Then discussing registration for next semester. Not prepared for that.
Tonight...I don't know. Desperately want to be irresponsible. But can I afford irresponisibility?

Fuckin' rhetoric.

You know something's wrong when...
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st_eve_bc:
as intolerable as life may be some times, I indeed think that your more intelligent then me, and you have a girlfriend, so dont rub it in.

be well
pixie_punch:
Art History Test eeek eeek eeek

I feel your pain.

Sunday Nov 14, 2004

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Never underestimate the power of miscommunication.

Maybe that's what's actually meant by the phrase "Love is blind." Love is blind to objectivity. Love is blind to the rational, cool-headed way a person would react with anyone else but the one they love.

And I have an internal Cassandra complex. Internal, because 99% of the time it'll never come up in conversation.

But then, I never...
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daekrys:
aye, for love, and when we realize what we've been doing this entire time, it makes us wonder why no one told us what we were doing. but it sure is fun while your doing it. i never built any big walls, just a little hole i can crawl into, and i close the door, and it has a smiley face painted on it, to fool away the would be botherers of me. lots of smoking, and then some drinking, more smoking, medusa.
st_eve_bc:
I wonder where my comment ended up.. thats funny I swear I left it here.



Saturday Nov 13, 2004

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I like change, probably more so than the next person (who the hell is that guy, anyway? Keeps looking at me weird...), but two major paradigm shifts in about a month....that's a little much for me.

It's amazingly traumatic to discover that, while you've been spending the past few days wondering what to do for the one-month anniversary, she's been obsessing over your faults, feeling...
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toneski:
I was actually there when this picture was taken.
There was Popeye's chicken left on one of those wood posts, and the rhino's showed amazing skills by creating a means to
achieve this leftover goodness.
tailofdogma:
Wow, it's been too long since i've seen rhino's go at it. Wait, did I type that or did I think it? Can they hear me?

Thursday Nov 11, 2004

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Things change. Thank fucking god. I almost feel like a person now.

I'm having a hard time with some of it. A for instance: a year from now, I'll probably have a real job. Like, the kind with regular hours that one needs a BA to land. The surrealism of that concept I cannot begin to describe.

Of course, I might not. My resistance to...
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blasfemme:
i'm a capricorn too.

we should have a party for our birthdays. foshizzle my lil snizzle.

kiss

your journals amaze me.
blasfemme:
you are good to sarah, that rocks.

friends indeed.

Thursday Nov 11, 2004

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I just can't seem to shake this cold. Fuck.

So I set a new record for myself: in more than 36 I only had 2 cigarettes. That's until about 5 minutes ago, my first in 12 hours. That cig left one thought in my mind: nicotine is a helluva drug.

Now I must go.

Here are the young men, the weight on their shoulders,
Here...
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billybillybilly:
heh, it was a scene from years ago that up until now i've not been able to do any justice to. everything i've previously tried to write about it has been too emotional and non-descript. this does a much better job of puting the reader in the situation i was in.

i'm fairly proud of it for that.
billybillybilly:
my advice on that would be to ask what you consider non-fiction.

something i used to do (millions of billions of years ago) was to just sit in any given place and view someone. pick up the little details about them and try to write descriptive poems about everything. from there you can branch out into assuming the things they did, what their life is like, what events have shaped them.

amalgamate people into being your own characters by seeking the motivations for their actions, which, through combining characteristics of various folks can have a nice effect.

take things you've been through and do an outline of the timeline of said event, but then put someone else in your place. i seem to find myself doing that from time to time.
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