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There was a Door to which I found no Key:
There was a Veil past which I could not see:
Some little Talk awhile of "Me" and "Thee"
There seemed---and then no more of "Thee" and Me."

The clouds will break and the sky cracks open
and god himself will reach his fucking arm through
just to push you down
just to hold you...
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I hate almost everything. Someone get me a drink.

Hey, new words!!

Hell of a week and change. Lost in school, spiritually drained, and the true cold snap has begun. Also, my flat now feels like home, I feel surprisingly sane/centered, and my girl rocks my world. Life isn't bad, just messy.

So this week will probably suck, what with school catching up on me. So y'all better come out to my party this...
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Well, I'm back.
It was an interesting weekend. Cathartic, in its way, but there's a lot of work yet to be done.

I finally have power in my place; which means the party is still a go.

Thanks, everyone, for the various forms of and offers of support. And especially to James and Sarah. Even a rock needs solid land to rest on.

Everything's ajumble....
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A day begins, normal to all appearances.
8:20ish, and I force myself out of a warm bed, made all the lovelier simply because it was shared. Then, out into the world. Buses caught, campus reached. I go, as usual, to a lab to sate my internet addiction.

Then, upon leaving, I run into my aunt and uncle. On campus? This can't be good. Things that...
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This afternoon I finished Jean-Paul Sartre's The Age of Reason. It was, as one might expect, depressing (French existentialism, could it be anything but?). The thing that struck me, however, was Sartre's definition of the "age of reason."

To him, it's that level of maturity where one realizes that freedom isn't everything; or rather, that to be truly free one must be tied down...
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Last night was truly awesome. Today, a little less so. I hate this time of year, if only because finals are upon me. Essentially there are two weeks left of the semester, filled with tests, presentations, and due dates. Someone's not going to be sleeping much.

And I have to do it this week, to. Yes, because I'm a touch behind, but also because tailofdogma...
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Curse being away from a working computer/internet connection for so long. I feel ridiculously behind in the various goings-on I usually keep up with, and all because of a silly holiday (still pissed that the campus was locked-down yesterday...only a couple of weeks left in the semester, we've got deadlines goddammit...not that I would've done homework on a Sat. anyway...)

Moved into my new place...
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Yesterday felt all sunny, today already seems interminable.
Mayhaps it's the ass-biting cold.

Oh, holiday weekend, here we come. Hmm.

The line it is drawn
The curse it is cast.

Insert sigh of relief.
Insert standard holiday apprehension.
Insert evil laughter?

No, not the time.

Semester closing. Insert fear. Insert relief (different sort).

Do you believe in rock and roll,
can music save your mortal soul?

Goddamn right.

Wow, three days between journals. Haven't done that for awhile.

Thought for the day: How accurately does the Libertines' lyric "The boy kicked out at the world,...
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