I seem to have been labouring under a misapprehension for some time.
See, I was under the impression that I needed to learn to trust other people. This isn't the case at all. Other people will always fail you. Other people can't, and won't, always be there.
I need to learn to trust myself.
That voice in the back of my head, the one that prowls around like a caged beast, isn't my enemy. Yes, it scares me. Yes, it's hurt me, and seems to want very badly to hurt others. But I can't go on fighting it, and I shouldn't. It's ridiculous. That force back there is the key to everything I've always known I could be. It's freedom. It's fire.
It's time to stop being broken.
Well, you're up so high
how can you save me
when the dark comes here
tonight to take me
up to my front walk
and into bed where it kisses my face
and eats my head....
"I'm just a what, bitch?"
See, I was under the impression that I needed to learn to trust other people. This isn't the case at all. Other people will always fail you. Other people can't, and won't, always be there.
I need to learn to trust myself.
That voice in the back of my head, the one that prowls around like a caged beast, isn't my enemy. Yes, it scares me. Yes, it's hurt me, and seems to want very badly to hurt others. But I can't go on fighting it, and I shouldn't. It's ridiculous. That force back there is the key to everything I've always known I could be. It's freedom. It's fire.
It's time to stop being broken.
Well, you're up so high
how can you save me
when the dark comes here
tonight to take me
up to my front walk
and into bed where it kisses my face
and eats my head....
"I'm just a what, bitch?"
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great new profile pic... ishould have done that.
About Elephant: It got such great praise, too, and i dont see how. Van Sant is falling off, i'm tellin ya.
still sucks though...
i'm looking forward to an email but wish i could get you on the phone but it's disconnected again until i get more money than i can spend in one trip to the bar. I do have another phone here in my dorm but I'm so rarely here except for this weekend when i expect to veg. out in my room and do lots of homework.
honestly, i'm quite scared about the possibility of back surgery and Altru fucking it up somehow. Like Dr. Nick and his patient Donald McGreg, with a leg for an arm and an arm for a leg. Do not resusitate me if i'm a vegatable. let me die with dignity, while i'm talking medical care.
Connor, I have no idea when I will see you next. This summer's plans have completely collapsed under me and shiny things keep getting dangled in front of me along with silly things called logic. More things to be discussed through e-mail methinks. Kill Ann Coulter if possible when she speaks at St. Thomas. it can't be THAT difficult...