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I come from the land of the ice and snow.

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Thursday Feb 03, 2005

Feb 3, 2005
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It's been so beautiful out.
Last night the air smelled of cedar, the perfect balance of chill and humidity like a caress. The ground, everywhere, twinkling...

In less than six days I'll be gone. I wish I didn't have to go. I came to love this place, these people. It's all going to leave a gapping hole in my life. I'll miss her the most, of course, but I'll miss every one of you.

I wish I didn't have to go, but I fucked up. She's even taken me off her friend's list now. I can't believe how much that stings...I didn't know I could hurt worse.

I never wanted it to be this way. I still don't know how it got so out of control, how things could devolve to such a degree. It hurts so badly, because it proves that all the horrible things I've always thought about myself are true. All of them.

fuck
VIEW 10 of 10 COMMENTS
parks:
that's so awesome, that guy was cool in an "i'm your waiter at Perkins" kinda way
Feb 4, 2005
charlatan:
I have your info. I will send you mine. Take care of yourself.
Feb 4, 2005

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