cinnamon_spider

Thanks everyone for their kind words and encouragement lately! kisses all round!!!



Things are pretty shitty right now, so apologies if I'm not in touch on msn or if I'm not commenting very much for a while... my life's kinda turned upside down and I can't find my footing anymore.



My best friend in the entire world, one of the very few people I feel comfortable with, who I can just be me with... they're leaving tomorrow morning, 11am, going about 200miles away... which on my income is far too far away!!!



He's gay, I'm mainly gay (don't ask!), but we have such a strong connection, a bond I've never had with anyone else in my life! We just instantly clicked and have gotten closer than any other friends I've ever had... he means the world to me, I'd do just about anything for him.

And now he's going.

And although I know that he won't be gone forever, that I'll see him, that we'll still be in touch... although I know all that, it's breaking my heart that he's going...

I thought heart-break was reserved for romantic relationships... I was wrong...


I can't believe how much this is hurting...



It's times like this that I wish I still self-harmed as much as I used to... doing it only occassionally just isn't the same... I could do with some physical pain right now... it's gotta be better than this heart-ache!



I can't stop crying!