cindi_slaughter

well...
roller derby is going spectacular...
i ate it big last night though at practice
2 big black bruises, and fucked my leg a little
but i'll be ok

im in applicatoin for a schnauzer puppy...
i love them and i really want to adopt
so so so so so so so excited!!!
i hope i get her
they have all these like come check your house and
references and
dog check and blah blah blah
like im adopting a freakin kid or something!!

anyways... im excited in fact i need to clean up now!!

in other news
the last few weeks have been weird...
the boy is not feeling well and i havent seen much at all
i think he's avoiding me
he gets in moods and does that sometimes...
all i can do is just leave him alone and hope that he comes out of it...
but its so hard for me cause when im depressed i just want to be around him
and nobody else
and i definately dont want to be alone
but i have to realize that he is not me and he deals with things differently
i just hope this isnt because i was having a bad week a couple weekends ago
and finaly just told himthat i was unhappy with how things were going and wanted to work on some things
he said everything was gunna be ok but i havnt really seen him much since then
sometimes i just dont know how to take him...

why doesnt everyone just think like me so that i could always know whats going on

why am i such a freakin nut?

why cant i ever get this shit right??

can someone tell me how to do this right?
....