is it silly to want to be included when he goes to hang out at his friends when there are other couples and stuff over there?
im being silly
i know i am but i just feel left out ya know
but i dont want to start a fight, he should be allowed to have his own friends...
i think i have a problem with abandonment? it would make sense...
sometimes i feel like we are stuck in one spot and he doesnt see us going anywhere... just by the was he talks about the future
i mean i am really happy where we are but we cant stay "here" forever?
comments like "i'll probaly never get married" or talking about moving out with one of the "guys" when he lands a great job... guys, not me, guys, 3 years?
or when he says "if i ever married anyone" anyone? what the hell does that mean?
he just called to say he'll be drinkin and stayin the night there at "jimmy and danas" i guess i just feel left out
i dont want to be left outit makes me feel like im not good enough or cool enough to hang out with them...
i dont want him to think i want him to take me everywhere with him i would just like to be included some times ya know, he acts like its just the guys but its not there are at least 2 girlfriends there.
im so irritated! we had a good time today and went to the mall and i guess he thinks thats good enough and gets him off the hook for tonight but it doesnt! am i wrong? should i be content with going to the mall and just ignore the fact that he never takes me out with him when he goes and drinks with the guys? that makes me feel not good enough and i dont know how many times i need to say that before he gets it?
before he understands that i feel left out, that im not cool enough to hang out with and drink with?!
am i being silly?
am i being a drag or what?
i just feel like if your gunna party why would you NOT want to party with your girlfriend or boyfriend?
uhgahahahahaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
i just want to scream!!!!!!!!!
im so irritated... ok thats enough
do i sound silly now?
ok goodnight...
Kaci
im being silly
i know i am but i just feel left out ya know
but i dont want to start a fight, he should be allowed to have his own friends...

i think i have a problem with abandonment? it would make sense...
sometimes i feel like we are stuck in one spot and he doesnt see us going anywhere... just by the was he talks about the future
i mean i am really happy where we are but we cant stay "here" forever?
comments like "i'll probaly never get married" or talking about moving out with one of the "guys" when he lands a great job... guys, not me, guys, 3 years?
or when he says "if i ever married anyone" anyone? what the hell does that mean?
he just called to say he'll be drinkin and stayin the night there at "jimmy and danas" i guess i just feel left out
i dont want to be left outit makes me feel like im not good enough or cool enough to hang out with them...
i dont want him to think i want him to take me everywhere with him i would just like to be included some times ya know, he acts like its just the guys but its not there are at least 2 girlfriends there.

before he understands that i feel left out, that im not cool enough to hang out with and drink with?!

am i being silly?
am i being a drag or what?
i just feel like if your gunna party why would you NOT want to party with your girlfriend or boyfriend?
uhgahahahahaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
i just want to scream!!!!!!!!!

im so irritated... ok thats enough
do i sound silly now?
ok goodnight...
Kaci
