cindarrr

Well that totally blew. I had a great time with Colby on Friday, we hung out watched T.V., had sex, drank a few glasses of wine, took a bath together, had sex in the tub, acted really silly and had a great time, i thought things were falling together nicely. Decided to stay an exstra night, picked him up from work, said he felt sick but that he was going to drink anyway despite feeling like he was going to "die", I told him that that was a stupid idea and left it at that, I'm not going to start a war when he is going to do whatever he wants anyway. To cut a long silly story short, he was a jerk to me for the rest of the night, yelled at me untill I was bawling and then continued to yell at me for crying. I'm not cut out for this shit, I don't deserve to be treated that way, and no one has a right to do that to me. I guess to him its not a big deal, I mean hes admitted to me that he doesn't take thing seriously at all, its my biggest fault that I try to I guess. I feel like the biggest loser in the world, where's the smiley for that?