cindarrr

Don't talk to people when you are drunk and emotional, you will make a fool of yourself. I called Josh last night when I was both, (drinking with family after going to visitation) I called him and he said that mary and rachel and shaz were over, and i said jokingly, "is rachel still trying to get into your pants?" I don't know what made me say it, but I did. After that the whole conversation was downhill. I can't stand the Rachel girl and I hate her for no real reason. He is having a party tonight I hope she doesn't come but I can't hope for much. I just have to remember to get stoned drunk and keep my mouth shut.
I am feeling better about my grandmother lately, I think things are going to be O.K. for me. Actually i think they will be better, its time to grow up, and its time to start living my life for myself and not for anyone else.