cindarrr

I t hasn't really started to sink in that I have lost my grnadmother till tonight, went to the funeral hom etonigh for visitation, its amazing how shallow people are, not sure why I feel that way. She meant so much to me. I want her back. I can't believe my grandmother is gone. I am drunk along with my brother father and one cousin. I am glad no one expects me to be sober for this.
Cindy
:: I want to be held, I hate to cry.::