cindarrr

SO, I did get to go to Louisville to see my best friends. It was amazing, I ate a lot of shit that I don't believe in, because, well all I can ask for on my birthday is for everyone to pardon me eating cheese for a day.
I was going to meet up with Stephen and go home with him.
that sounded fun to me at the time, but I rationalized that it would lead to me being really really sad.
So I left with someone else. This person took me to strip clubs, i had my tits sucked i think. Its all hazy, though i do remember comparing finger smells when we got into the car. Jesus.
The next day all of my friends (who all happen to be unemployed, YES!) paraded around town with me. We laughed a lot. It was a good birthday trip. I love my friends.
Which leads to.......
Cindy having a severe panic attack after the first day of school in her car.
Luckily I have meds and am ok now.
I'm just not allowed to have fun I guess, or it makes me sad/crazy
I am going to post some b day pics eventually.