cindarrr

Last Night I went with my gay friend jaden to cahoots.
It wasn't much fun as i don't know any of her friends so i got bored and left. I didn't even say goodbye.
I then went to club 21/the poor haus to watch my ex dj with brian. Thank god he broke up with that girl, I was so relieved. I hated her, at least the first one was a nice girl.
anyway, this boy I've been talking to suddenly online came to meet me there. He found me off of ricky's myspace page. Suspicious. i think ricky told him that I'm easy or something, which is really only true in ricky's case, I can't stay away from him.
So anyway, I didn't really talk to him cause I was so wrapped up in ricky, but after we all left, he called me, and I went to where he was staying.
we watched whats eating gilbert grape, and I layed with my head in his lap and wrapped my arms around him. I'm riding the crimson wave anyway, but he didn't know that. I didn't even kiss him.
I was so proud of myself for not putting out despite being drunk. I didn't want to. And I succecfully cuddled with a boy untill I went to sleep. It felt so much better.
I feel a little renewed.,
Anyway I woke up on the couch this morning and drove home. I didn't say goodbye or anything.